Temporary

Temporary.

Things have been moving so fast and it seems like everything is temporary. All the busy-ness, quietness, sadness, happiness, playfulness, frustrations came to past so fast that I can hardly keep track. In moments of sadness, I tell myself it is temporal. When I am in a state of elation, I wonder how long it will last.

I have just been thinking that 'Temporary' is such a harsh word. It brushes off every mood and emotion that one should discover in the moment itself. It says 'whatever goes' and struts on in life with a defeated spirit. It says 'come what may' in a defiant tone. And beneath the facade lies a heart harden to the core like a stone.

2 Corinthians 4:16-18
Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

Many times I miss out the first sentence: therefore do not lose heart. I think the best way is to count my blessings before I start another module of studies. That way, I wouldn't lose focus and get discouraged by things that are happening around me.

Ahh...my little thoughts again.

On another note, last week, a team of us went with Pastor John to FCC in BM to minister and to have fellowship with their church. It was a pretty small church, similar to GCC, my church in SP, family-based and the people were very warm. The amazing thing was that I met Pr. KA's brother there and I was wondering why he looked like the Ngs in my church back in Penang. It is a small world indeed! We had a great time of ministry.

I loved the song the worship leader sang that day. The title was 'yun shang tai yang'. If I did not interpret wrongly, it meant behind every cloud there is a silver lining.

云 上 太 阳

无 论 是 住 在 美 丽 的 高 山
wu lun shi zhu zai mei li de gao shan
或 是 躺 卧 在 阴 暗 的 幽 谷
huo shi tang wo zai yin an de you gu
当 你 抬 起 头 你 将 会 发 现
dang ni tai qi tou ni jiang hui fa xian
主 已 为 你 我 而 预 备
zhu yi wei ni wo er yu bei

云 上 太 阳 它 总 不 改 变
yun shang tai yang ta zong bu gai bian
虽 然 小 雨 洒 在 脸 上
sui ran xiao yu sa zai lian shang
云 上 太 阳 它 总 不 改 变
yun shang tai yang ta zong bu gai bian
哈 ～ 它 不 改 变
ha ta bu gai bian


Zhu yi wei ni wo er yu bei. Please remind me everyday Lord; that I am living for You!